Hello,
I am new to this site and really enjoy it. I have been studying astrology on my own for years. Here's my question:
I don't understand why I have really bad anxiety attacks when I go to look for a job. I keep getting fired over and over again. I'm a good worker, I don't steal, and I don't bother anyone. My only real problem is that I miss one to two days of work a month, due to anxiety turning into psychosomatic illnesses. My husband lets me stay home, and I don't have to pay any bills. I do attend school full-time, but I don't even know why I'm doing that anymore.
Could my anxiety be worse because of the crazy Uranus stuff I've got going on? I have Uranus conjunct Chiron and my Ascendant. It's opposing my Virgo descendant, natal Uranus and soon will be opposing Pluto. It is also opposing natal Uranus.
Other crazy chart stuff is going on. Venus is conjuncting natal Saturn in Aquarius (which is in the 12th house). Saturn is squaring natal Venus. Mars is squaring natal Pluto. Chiron is squaring Venus.
I don't even want to get out of bed. I'm on two different antidepressants already. I'm starting counseling in a couple of weeks. What I want to know, how can I find strengths in my chart to get myself out of this slump? I'm absolutely miserable because I have almost no money, live in a shack, and I'm not self-sufficient. I'm ashamed of myself for staying in a marriage simply because I can't take care of myself.
Do I need to state my birth info? 10-16-63 Dallas TX 3:41 pm.
I'd appreciate any comments or suggestions.
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